First Time in Ages

Hello Everyone,

I am writing on here for the first time in ages (well approximately a year and a half)

I have taken a long hiatus and in that time so much has happened: Quit my job, started a new one, had a boyfriend, broke up, got in a Masters in Mental Health Program, moved many times, was promoted, moved many more times, started school, was promoted again, moved many more times, was promoted again, moved, was promoted again, fights with family, several guys broke my heart, ex trying to get back together, transferring to another school, many many counseling appointments.

Woah, it’s been quite a year!

What I have learned in all this time is that: I cannot try and live to impress and gain approval from people, I must live the way God wants me too, no matter who does not approve.

It has/ is not an easy lesson to learn. I am definitely not perfect at it, but I am definitely trying to remember that I have the only approval I need!

Healing from the past has not been easy, but with God’s help I am learning to trust Him for the strength I need to heal!

I am glad to be back on here.

God Bless!



From My Past…

For as long as I can remember I have hated the terms “Survivor of Sexual Abuse” and “Victim of Sexual Abuse”.

I am a female who has been sexual abused in the past by my adopted brother and I am finding healing from the effects of the abuse, both by my brothers hand and by my own hand (self-injury/eating disorder).

I am not a victim and I am not a survivor. I am hurt but not defeated. I am kicked but not stomped. I am ever understanding the need for breaking the pattern of addiction and self-abuse in my life and I am leaning on my Creator to help me.

I will not let my brother have the power of guilt over me any longer. I will not let my family shut my up and push me out. I stand up for the silent and the hurting and I say “No” to the push-back of family members who do not understand the pain and effects that the past has put upon my life.

God has given me a voice and I will use in the power of His name and for His name and through His name.

I. Am. Woman. And though I be but little, I am fierce.

Stand back and watch what God can do through me.

I am not a survivor, I am a conqueror.